Our Journey (Entry #20)

March 3, 2013

I had planned to post tonight, asking our friends to join us prayer for tomorrow's scan.  However, Friday at 5:00, we received a call notifying us that we did not have authorization for this scan and it would have to be postponed until such authorization could be obtained.  Once again, my very plan oriented husband, was not a happy camper.  But I'm happy to say, I watched him school his emotions right in front of me...and just like that, he put the situation in God's hands.

I too, found myself very frustrated with the whole mess, but we trust God and know that every detail is in his hands.  Granted, waiting the last 2 months has not been easy.   (I almost think it's easier when you are doing treatment...at least then you are "doing" something.)   But when that call came on Friday, I realized something very important.  Jeff and I both have grown through this whole ordeal.   We did not respond the same way we would have 6 months ago.   We have learned to trust God.  

We will have to wait until tomorrow to see when the scan can be done.   As of now, we have a Dr.'s appointment scheduled for Thursday.  That may have to change too, but we will not worry about that.  Whenever the scan does take place, we are praying that we will see proof of Jeff's healing. 

We ask you to join us in these ways:  1)Pray that approval for the scan comes through tomorrow with no hassel.  2) Pray that the scan shows that the cancer is gone.  3) Pray that Jeff's cough goes away and his strength returns and 4) pray that God continues to be glorified in this struggle.

We are confident that God is healing or has healed Jeff.   Still, we have moments of fear when it seems that perhaps the enemy is gaining ground.  It's in these moments that I remember the father in Mark 9:24, when he exclaimed, "I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief."   God doesn' t just want my brave face...He wants me to admit when I not so brave and let Him help me with my struggle.   God understands that we are anxious about this test...even as I admit that, He stands ready to strengthen my belief and help me overcome my unbelief.   We are in His hands.  We trust Him.  We will willingly wait for His perfect timing.  Lord, teach us how to wait on You!